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What he never said

To my Princess, Daddy has always loved you.

 

From millions of miles away, I saw the field of

Freckles over your nose.

The mischievous smirk and wink you would do

When you wanted something.

 

Remember Daddy will always love you.

 

To my Princess, I’m sorry I hide from you.

And I miss you too, so much I only have

The courage to speak to you when I drink

Liquid courage. I’m sorry that my demons

Had control of my voice and body for so long.

But Daddy needs to be better before we can

Be together again.

 

Remember though Princess, Daddy loves you.

 

To my Princess, I see your calls and emails every day.

I can’t pick up my arms or use my fingers to respond,

It feels like I am dying every time I see your name and

Can’t listen to your voice or read your words.

 

I know it doesn’t seem like it Princess, but Daddy still loves

you.

 

To my Princess, I met that nice guy of yours. I can see his

Love for you grows each second. I’m happy you found someone

To protect you the way I never could.

 

I still love you, Princess.

 

To my Princess, we don’t really talk anymore. I hate myself

More and more each day because of it. I don’t blame you

For only trying every once and awhile. I still can’t seem to

Face you. You seem so much better without me. It’s better

to let you go on with your life.

 

I have learned to love you from afar Princess, what’s a little

While longer.

 

To my Princess, I saw you cry today. I saw you but you couldn’t

See me. I reached for you but my hand went right through you.

You looked so broken Princess tears staining the bathroom floor,

I am so sorry to be the cause of your pain again. I didn’t want to

Leave you again.

 

I love you Princess, and always will. You are the apple of my eye,

The air in my lungs. I will dance in your dreams and just know I

Miss you too.